My Interview on Dear Little Me Podcast with Dawn Chitty
My Interview on Label Free Podcast with Deanna Radulescu
Devotion to Pleasure with Carly Crotwell
In December2023, I fulfilled a lifelong dream!
I took my two kids to Europe for 3 weeks.
And then in February, I spent 3 weeks in Costa Rica with friends at a luxury retreat and my first music festival, Envision, without kids.
I have successful businesses. I'm in charge of my time, income and job security.
I'm enjoying my relationships, and I’m relaxed most of the time.
I do what I want when I want to. And I teach my clients how to have the same!
But it wasn’t always this way.
Honestly, I used to be irritated by people who said things like this. Why?
Because I was jealous.
I believed they were successful because they had a better start in life, more knowledge, were more special or better than me in some way. Like I was uniquely flawed.
Those were all lies!
I’m worthy. You’re worthy.
We don’t have to be special, or the best, or work constantly to have what we want.
We do have to embrace how amazing we are just because we exist.
God doesn’t make mistakes.
This is easier said than done, though.
We can repeat affirmations all day every day and still feel stuck.
That’s because real change requires more than just words—it demands deep, transformative action.
I’ve always been a risk taker, but it was very scary and painful for most of my life.
I grew up in a cult, where scarcity and fear were the dominant vibration.
Money felt dirty and hard to get. Sexual assault was swept under the rug. Victims were blamed.
Shunning, guilt, and shame kept us compliant. We learned not to trust our bodies or ourselves.
Abuse patterns of all kinds were seen as normal in my family.
I always knew I wanted something different.
When I had kids, I knew I had to change things to make sure I didn’t pass these low vibrational beliefs on to them.
I don’t want them depressed and feeling like they can’t do anything right, the way I felt.
This desire lead me to be the first in my family to graduate from college, earning a Bachelor's and an MBA, among other certificates and awards.
I decided that academia, a corporate job and chasing prestige and financial wealth would make me happy and provide the best life for me and my kids. I thought if I could just make enough money, then I could finally relax and enjoy myself.
But it didn't matter what I achieved or how much money I made. The raises and promotions kept coming. The projects and my impact were growing.
But happiness was elusive and I kept spending as much or more than I earned.
I didn't know at the time that it was my childhood that haunted me and determined my financial behavior and constant feeling of stress.
I know what you're thinking. Childhood? You've got to be kidding. Get over it.
Me too. I had spent my whole life up until then believing I was moving on and I could just forget.
Turns out it just doesn't work that way.
I could not avoid it anymore. My life was passing me by with frustration. I had forgotten how to have fun. I didn't even know what I wanted anymore.
And I was not willing to waste the rest of my life like this, just to keep my pride intact.
I tried to go it alone and I got somewhere.
But the major shifts began happening when I finally decided I was worthy of support. I needed results, fast!
The books and YouTube just weren’t cutting it anymore.
I invested in coaching. It accelerated my healing and growth beyond what I could have imagined.
And now I am a coach, helping my clients heal the patterns, and learn the steps to bring them to freedom.
I had always been sought out for my knowledge and advice by friends, family and my employees.
I love helping clients shed shame and embrace self-acceptance.
I love doing the work with people who are committed to living their best lives.
I love sharing freedom.
Freedom to choose how to spend their time.
Freedom to work in a nourishing flow state instead of a depleting force state.
Freedom to set boundaries.
Freedom to feel joy.
Freedom to feel intimacy.
Freedom to feel love.
Freedom to love and nourish their bodies, hearts, minds, and businesses.
Freedom to get paid really well and with ease.
Freedom to be who they are meant to be.
Freedom to stop putting other people’s opinions ahead of their truest desires.
If you’re ready to experience this freedom, let’s talk!